It's 10pm and I just put Landon down for the night. Although he's still, curled up, and peacefully sleeping- I can't stop staring at him. I keep thinking of how two people can come together to create a being, a new soul with a real heartbeat, and a brand new mind.
As I sit here in a euphoric awe looking at my son (saying that as a new mother gives me the butterflies every time), I can't help but to feel like there's so much he needs to know about this world before he begins living in it. This little boy I'm staring at is going to have questions, feelings, talents, etc. Therefore:
As you grow up, I hope to guide you in a direction where good overcomes evil, love ultimately wins, and happiness is a choice. I hope to protect you from any harm and strengthened you to fight fear in the face. I wish to grow together with you, where you reteach me the beauty of innocence and the luxury of freedom. I want you to explore, analyze, and question everything the world has to offer and create your own theories and thoughts about the unanswered why's, how's, and what if's you may have. I hope to teach you the importance of loyalty and integrity for it will take you very far. I hope you embody each one of your truths and live an honest life.
Landon, this world could be so beautiful, if you let it. There will be dark days and even darker nights, and although I may not be able to shield them away for you- although I'll do my best, always remember that pain is temporary and life is too precious to dwell on a passing cloudy storm. Believe in yourself, in prayer, and in God- he will guide you on days I may fail to help you understand, stay humble. Listen to your heart and never silence emotions or feelings, they are what make the world go 'round and I promise, love is worth it. I want you to become the best version of yourself and be the author of your own life. Make mistakes, take chances, and learn unlimited lessons.
They say there's no such thing as magic but if I were to define it to be true, it would be this right here, you and I- me and you.
I won't last forever for in this world we'll run out of time - but with this I give my heart to you son, it is yours as you are mine.
I love you.